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WANTT.

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Today is December 31, 2010. This means it has been 4 months and 24 days, or 148 days since you died. Today is December 31, 2010 and as I write this sentence it is 12:31AM. That means in 23hrs and 29minutes it will be January 1, 2011, our anniversary. The day you asked me to be your girlfriend, three years ago. I’ve known you since 2007, and we spent our time talking about how you gave me butterflies, how we’d be together forever and how nothing could tear us apart. As it sits, we are torn apart in two different universes. I am on earth, and you are light years away from me, or something of that sort. I dread this day, the next, and a few days after because there is so much going on. I could be weak; I could decide to end everything right here, right now - but I won’t. I’m going to be selfish, maybe drink some wine, indulge in some crying and treat myself to a lot of sleep to pass tomorrow by. However, today on December 31, 2010 I will venture two hours away to see one of the places where you rest, to drop two flowers: one red and one yellow for you, and then travel over to the house you grew up in to play with your brother, hug your mother and father and cry in your bed becuase I’m just that weak. To imagine spending our anniversary alone is incredibly heartbreaking. I feel so lonely already and the ball hasn’t even dropped. I won’t be watching tv at 12am, or anything of that sort. I remember that night, perfectly and I’ll write about it tonight because I know I won’t be coherent enough to write it tomorrow.
It was December 31, 2007 and it was the first time we met in person. After months and months of talking online and on webcam we FINALLY got to meet. Your dad dropped you off at my house because you couldn’t drive yet, and I had butterflies that whole time. Around 8pm or so you showed up to my house, I walked into my garage opened it and then walked outside barefooted in my purple exclamation mark(aren’t you glad I don’t wear that anymore, babe?) hoodie and I saw the most gorgeous thing I had ever laid eyes on: you. You were wearing a white button down, and a black tie; you had 12 red roses in your hand and you ran up to me and gave me the biggest hug ever and said “Hi, I’m Rodney.” I was engulfed in your smell and I wanted that moment to last forever. You came inside, met my mother and dog and then we took your stuff upstairs. I hugged you again in my room, and as we were about to walk back downstairs I stopped you said “Hi, I’m Taylor” and gave you our first kiss. The rest of the night was full of holding eachothers hands, and acting like little children. Before the ball dropped we were somehow back in my room, and I  remember sitting at the edge of my bed and whispering in your ear those three horrifying words “I love you”. My stomach dropped so much, I never felt that way ever and to this day - that feeling is one I will never, ever forget. I could have thrown up and died all in that moment, and honestly - that’s kind of what it felt like. Anyway, you asked me if I was sure a million times so I figured you didn’t love me, and after replying yes every time you finally said it back. At 11pm, it was you and I sitting in my basement on the edge of my couch next to the tv. We were watching MTV’s new years eve and paramore was on it. I knew you hated it because you always hated Paramore but you weren’t even paying attention to the TV. At 12:01am on January 1, 2008 you asked me to be your girlfriend. I looked at you and smiled then replied with a “yes” and a ton of kisses. From then on, we were forever inseparable, and even more in love. I loved you before I said it that night. I was in love with you, four years ago. I am still in love with you, four years later. I love you, Rodney Dewane Coats. Happy almost us day.

i will never ever not reblog this. ever. ♥

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notadamselindistress:

WANTT.

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